OK, so I know the process of defining a mission, and it occured to me over the last month or so why I haven’t done what is taught.

I know that if i commit to a clear mission statement that it does a more important thing than define what I am, it more clearly defines what I am not.  I know that to have a lazer beam clear mission, that I need to weed out.  What is giving me hope that it is OK, is the peace and joy I feel when I get rid of the physical clutter in my life.  My fear, is one of loss.  I realize that I am struggling with the giving up part.  What am I agreeing to NOT do anymore, to become effective at the things that I am not only called to do, but enjoy doing even more.

I want to thank Sean Smith, because he gave me the analogy that set this ball in motion back in May.  “You can use a knife as a screwdriver, but eventually it won’t be good for either job.”  It was the set up for the Song Real… “Trying to recognize the face in the mirror …”  Well I feel like a drawer full of knives.

I’ve been defining what it is I do, and found I am juggling not 3, but 4 balls in the air.  I also find that I am doing like a dozen things because of that…  “Jack of all trades, Master of some.”  I have lately become weary of juggling.  Of all of the skills, gifts and tasks that I enjoy, I enjoy juggling the least!

I just want to publically say that I am working on this because I trust you all.  I am moving toward a conversation with Sue Ross or someone like her, to help me wrestle through this a little faster.  I am very good at big picture thinking and visualizing.  I am very good at single task execution, but i am terrible at large scale planning, goals, and general persistence.  I embrace distraction.

Look at these guys and their mission statement….
Five Guys

I want to end up that clear as I set out on the next several years of my life.

I don’t just want your prayers, I’d love input, and I think I am going to start a blog about this partly to journal my progress, but also to maybe help someone else who is going through the same thing.

For me, I wear a lot of hats … Artist, Promoter, Producer, Web designer, Consultant, Writer, Songwriter, Worship Leader, Sound Engineer, and on and on and on… Not to mention, Software Engineer, Troubleshooter, Church leader, Father, Husband, Son, Sibling, and Encourager ….  Add to that list Plumber, Electrician, Drywaller, the pentultimate do-it-your-selfer…..

Time to seek peace and joy in the calling and find focus.

I’m growing wearing of being a hat rack.  Time to lose some weight.